103: Barely Alive

Monday May 6

In this transition time with work, I've barely had time to get yoga in, but I've been burning the midnight oil to get it done.

It's weird. Every time I do yoga after dark, my balance becomes increasingly shaky.

Oh well.

Sunday Fail

Whoops, Yoga = not doing as much as I should

Day 102

Saturday May 5,

Half-session yoga day - very busy! Many happy congratulations to all. 

Day 101:

Friday, May 3rd:

Today was a big day, filled with seeing family and meeting different people. Despite the the busy schedule, I snuck in a quick yoga session!

Day 100!!!!

Thursday, May 2

What what!

I can't believe I've made it to 100 days! That's crazy. When I started this thing, I knew I would keep pushing myself, but even I am surprised that 100 days have come.

I have been pleased that I branched out from Power Yoga—Stamina to Yoga Burn, but I need to be doing more and I need to get control of my appetite. It is time to fit into smaller clothes. Summer is always the hardest time because the food is better (ice creams, drinks, etc.) and the clothes are much skimpier. People want to show off their amazing bodies. All I want to do is hide mine.

It's really a shame. If I were in better shape, I would feel comfortable meeting more people and I think I would be more fulfilled. I know that my weight should not be an obstacle to meeting others and doing great things, but, for me, it is!

I want to be in a place where I am comfortable sharing my body. Since I've started this thing, I dropped about 20 pounds, but then I gained a whole bunch and now I'm about 10-13 pounds down from where I started.

That's a good accomplishment and all, but when you have 100 pounds to lose, it is hard to celebrate it.

And yet, this is the 100th day I've stuck with something. That is HUGE! (bigger than me)

I am proud of myself and hopefully this will help reinvigorate me and help me move forward. 

Day 99: Fatty Muscles

May 1:

I can't believe I've finally made it to May! It's a miracle! I have been true to myself and while I have faltered here and there, this is still the most consistent amount of exercise that I have done over the course of my life. The only problem is that I have so much fat covering my muscles that it is difficult to get through.

Yoga has been great. While I have not met my other sub-goals, doing any number of days of swimming or anything of that sort, I am confident that I can knock some out this sumer.

I am still thankful that I have been consistently following my yoga routine and while I am still not in the best shape of my life, I am in better shape than I was before.

Day 98: Pain burns

Burning, dull, aching pain courses through my body as if I had sat on a cushion of pin needles.

Yoga burn is hard, but worst off, I'm not sure I'm doing it properly. It burns and makes me want to just do something that is safe.

If I'm going to be completely honest, part of the problem is probably from the somewhat large weight gain I have bee experiencing. I'm hooked back on sugar and that snowballs so that I am eating much larger quantities at more numerous times of the day.

I just saw a picture of myself and it was frankly embarrassing. I wanted to cry.


Back to the drawing board.